User blog comment:Sonicsilva1/Another note about the Community/@comment-17708066-20160717011548/@comment-24346593-20160717185840

I will admit, it was cheesy as well, and you also made a pun with that last sentence.

But the thing is, how can I practice when I don't have the tools, confidence, and the anxiety of rejection overpowers me? I know that most of you guys are the nicest people I've known for years and you would never be mad at something that I would do wrong, but I'm still afraid of showing you guys what I tried doing and say "Oh wow, my grandma can do better than that" or on the lines of that.

The same thing happened when I went to mow a neighbors lawn for $40 and I nearly broke down when I "broke" the mower saying "Oh my god I'm gonna get skewered" when actually she was a saint. She told me it happens all the time and I can just put it back on.

The moral here is: I worry too much for something so little and so easy practice something, and I hate it. I'd much prefer to stay in my comfort zone instead of changing who I am to be a better person. I just don't have the confidence to do so, and I'm afraid that I'll be rejected either way. That's pretty much me.