User blog:Carefulspoon/Want to know if I'm overreacting...

Right now, I confess, I’m a little bit depressed…It took me SO LONG to create a picture I had high intentions one of my friends on SFCW would appreciate considering it would be his first fan-pic EVER. “Fan-Pic” commonly defined as a picture of someone else’s self-made character that a fan wishes to use in his/her design. This is not acceptable without first requesting permission, which I certainly did not ignore. When the original owner approved I tried so hard to make his character look appealing and to be honest when I finally finished after a MONTH I thought, through my own perceptive assessments, he looked at least decent, as I wanted…no…“needed” him to match the physical configurations of my artistic style. As you may have already guessed he wasn’t as pleased with the “fan-pic” as I had secretly hoped he would be. He complimented my craftsmanship on a character of my own in which I decidedly added to the picture but he was anything except impressed with my drawing of his own character. When I asked him specifically on wikichat if he liked or disliked the pic his response to this was “I’ve seen better pics” which (for some reason) felt like a thousand tons of bricks collapsing on top of my heart. Though perhaps that is a perfectly natural response from him, as an artist myself I understand the sheer importance of constructive perfection. Still…I had remarkably high expectations that the owner, (despite his lack of approval to my design), would at least show a small hint of gratitude considering I was the first ever to go so far as to create something for him. I wanted him to think of the pic, not only as a work of art, but a token of appreciation to his artistic ingenuity that I happen to somewhat admire. Something that shows I respect him and that I’m proud to have him as a friend. A gift-if you will-from me to him. Though it feels like my gift has intentionally been spit on and stomped into the dust like bitter trash that nobody takes into acknowledgement as they trample over it. Is it wrong of me to think of him as “ungrateful?” If not, am “I” the one who’s ungrateful? Perhaps I’m merely overreacting and my extraordinarily high level of sensitivity is just figuratively exaggerative. But…I put my greatest efforts into making this picture presentable only to have it frowned upon by someone I look up to. Can someone please tell me if i'm overreacting...