User blog:Sonicsilva1/RL/Character Update: Day 4

Checking schedule list

Right, I do believe I got some things to say...Where to start?

I have added a bit more information to my character page; however I think it's still a bit unorganized and not ordered the way I wanted it to. I plan on restarting that page for, like, the 15th time and starting fresh with my characters. (This may involve me erasing myself and Zoralth's page and starting fresh as I cannot seem to get a good frame with characters). This could also mean I'd be quitting the rping thing altogether or just stick to creating one character and going.

This is mainly because, well, I just can't help but notice how far people have gotten with their characters and it somewhat made me feel like they were more intelligent than me and knew what they were doing, as opposed to myself where I've been here for about a full year or so and I still have no clue what I'm doing.

Envy is quite a dangerous thing. I'm not envious to the point where I'm cursing and crucifying everyone. I'm a reserved type, and I would hate to shove my anger and frustration on those who work so hard to achieve what they want. As for me, however, I feel that I am not getting my achievements, even though I have the most points on this wiki. I still do not feel happy where I am at this current moment.

I want to be here as a happy, care-free man. Unfortunately, I just do not feel correct. So I plan on starting this whole thing over from the top, and see if I can get somewhere. I may change my mind, but I just feel that it would be necessary to write about my feelings and empty out my cranium in a gentleman-like manner without hurting anyone's feeling by shouting.