User blog:IvyMeme/Bleh. Updates

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Yep, updates.

Idk, I've just felt "off" recently. Coming on here, sometimes it feels like a chore 8C I'm not leaving. I'm just well... lost. I'm trying to turn my life around but It's hard, I don't really know anymore. So I've decided I will take a break from the chat.

I know, my history of breaks shows I am addicted to this site, but I am really going to try this time. This is my life we're talking about. Other time's i've tried to turn my life around I've been distracted by this, and it makes it worse when there's conflict. Oh I really wish I could block some people >_> I have a lot to worry about besides this website (no offense D8). School, my love life is a wreck and I wanna somehow fix it. I'm trying to get over my pathetic phobia of being alone. And I might be biploar >_> I think those things are more important than going onto a website. Plus it's really sunny where I live and I wanna make the most of it e.e

This laptop has been nothing but a distraction, so I need to get away from this for a while. And I'm always terrified of the conflict returning, that puts pressure on me. I need a break from it all. Also i'm not feeling 100% recently ._." I keep having coughing fits and I think I'm coming down with a cold.

''' Basically, I'm taking a break (dafaq bold writing, a well). When I get back, hopefully I'll be a better person, whose live doesn't revolve around her laptop. '''